I always
wonder why adults’ life must be so complicated, difficult and full of drama.
My parents
always fighting, Mom always crying and Dad break everything.
…sometimes
I’m getting hit even I’m not doing anything wrong.
It’s always
like this.
I’m tired.
So, happily
ever after is just a fairy tale then?
I don’t want
to grow up; I don’t want to get married and I don’t want to be like them.
One night, I
listen to something that I’m not supposed to hear.
They ‘sold’
me. I couldn't believe my ears either. I thought that I was their child.
How
could they…?
They notice
me, they try to explain, but I don’t believe them. How could I? They always
break their promise; they’re liar and have no time to spend on me. Even when I
desperate need my parents…
I always
believe them, but no more.
I decided to
run away from home. No such parents would do such a thing. They must be Evil in
disguise! My real and loving parents must be somewhere out there or …I just
unwanted child.
I always
yield all the time, I always try my best to behave to be a nice girl but no
more.
I decided to
run away from home…
…and go to
Sunset Valley.
I loathe
them! I despise them! I hate them!
…and I
change my identity…
I don’t need
my old name anymore…
…I could
live without them.
…let it go.
…Several years later…
My name is
Lily.
Sorry if you
must read horrid thing like that. That is just a little part of my life. Don’t
worry about me; I’m having a good life here. I’m stronger than you thought, you
know.
Well, let’s
move on from sentimental stuffs.
Tomorrow our
school will go into a field trip and I looking forward for it. You know there
is… tee-hee, I just too embarrassed to say it loud. There is one boy that I
like.
He’s cool,
dark and mysterious…
…and
definitely my type!
I don’t know
where it’s going but I just want to stay friend for now. I want to learn more
about him. I wonder if there’s someone that he like. He never talked about it.
Oh, he’s always hanging out with his friend. It
always had been three of them.
I wish that I could go inside, but it seems I’m
not fit to be there. I know my place; I’m just a poor country girl who barely
could buy my own taco. There’s no way that I could blend with them, two of them
are aristocrat. Well, yea I had crush on him, but I swear for Llama’s sake,
it’s not for his money. And one of them is my best friend.
Her name is Bella, she’s beautiful… I kind of
envy her, she could be with him. Well, Bella parents working for Goth. So
that’s understandable why they’re so close. I just wish that I could be in her
place. Tee-hee, kidding! I just enjoy my life, that’s her luck and Bella’s so
kind to me. She helped me through difficult times and she even shares her meal
when I don’t have money, she’s irreplaceable.
Then one day, I meet him in a park, sitting
alone. It’s odd that usually he always hanging out with Bella and Malcolm.
Oh, talking
about Malcolm, I heard he’s died on accident. I feel sorry for him.
I’m not into
news, I barely watching TV and couldn't afford subscription for newspaper.
That’s why public service helped me a lot. Thing that I do now is how I can
stay alive without depend on others but I’m still live gracefully, just like a
lady.
***
I received her letter. It’s from Lily. It’s been
a long time that I’ve seen her; I hope that she’ll alright. To fallen in love
with the same person is awkward.
But, somehow we survived without involved into a
cat fight… That’s not very ladylike.
I’m glad
that we’re still friends… sort of. I know our relationship will never be the
same again after I saw such thing. But, I just want a peaceful life. Even it
hurts me. My best friend tried to snatch my fiancée.
But, it’s
simply misunderstanding because I never told her; it’s also a part of my fault.
- Flashback
-
Dear, diary…
It’s November. November rain... I hate rain.
I don’t know what happened to Morty, since us
back from the school trip. He rarely talked about himself now after he’s gone
and it seems that he lost part of his soul. He starts to shut himself. I know,
I felt empty too without him but life goes on, Morty. We need to accept the
fact that our dear friend is gone.
Sometimes I
wonder if this is the best for us both.
I know that
he’s being forced to be with me to because the engagement thing.
I lived from a lower middle class family.
Bachelor family has been served Goth for generation. Well, it’s somehow look
like feudal thing that discuss about Lord and subordinate thing in Japan. My
Father, Simish somehow is like an advisor for their family and Morty Father’s
set up engagement for us since we haven’t born yet, to respect the tradition...
I know him
since he’s a little boy, for me he’s always a little boy.
You don’t
know how it feels.
I never
truly loved him anyway.
I tried my
best, but… I couldn't.
There’s
someone that I love. That’s Ricky Martin… ::)
Nah, I’m
just kidding and he’s already taken anyway. I’m envy for his partner, wish that
I’m in his partner place. He’s not only good looking; he’s… simply every girls
dream!
Eeek! Ricky
I love you!!!
Oops, my
apologies. That’s not very ladylike.
It’s like
hey Ricky you’re my prince charming, let’s get married and having a big happy
family! Dozens of kids are enough to keep two of us busy, so you wouldn't see
anyone but me.
Like that
gonna happen anyway, lol.
But, it’s
his life, his choice, his decision. It’s not my own business, yet so many
people who judgmental. People easily judge into other for the happiness that
they didn't have, because nothing they could do other than blame.
Oh, I just
sound like him and Morty, let’s change the topic.
I listen his
song that called “The
Best Thing About Me Is You “or
“Lo Mejor De Mi Vida Eres
Tú,” I love both version. I don’t want to be a home wrecker. But, real life
never works that way.
Sometimes I
wonder why. Sometimes I thought why life is not fair. But, my Dad always
reminds me to be grateful. Be grateful for what you had, before it’s become the
only thing that you had.
Sigh, that’s
why I don’t understand about love, love seems has no boundaries.
But, yes I
never told anyone. There’s one boy that I loved. But, now he’s gone forever. We
always been together and I never felt this way when I am with him, it’s
strange. My chest hurts when he’s not here anymore.
My Mother
doesn’t mind. But, I couldn’t let my Father down. But, whatever my case is.
Love just
happens… It cannot be forced. That’s why love is magical and sometimes bizarre.
He always
kind to everyone, even he’s being treated not fair. He always tried his best
even though his mother is so demanding and treat him just like nothing and
always compare him with others. Yet, he’s still being a good and nice kid, just
like Elsa from Frozen. I guess that sometimes not being goody-goody all along
is fine, being mischievous is fine as long stay in boundaries.
We’re a
human being anyway not an Angel.
I’ve seen
one side that I never saw from him one day, he looks like a Devil, and I guess
he’s up to his limits.
I guess
that’s what made me fall for him. But, maybe it simply a misunderstanding, yep
sometimes for us girl, we’re mistaken the kindness that boy offer as flirting.
He simply keeps his tradition to respect everyone.
I think that
he must be having someone that he loves too or his parents already set up
engagement for him.
I’m
confused.
Who’s the
one that I truly loved. It’s him or Morty?
My mother
says just believe in what my
heart told me.
Its pain me so much to know my heart told me
that is him.
But, no
matter what happens. I’ll always to continuing to love Morty. It’s my promise
for me, him and my Father. I’ll find a way to always love him. Maybe for him…
We’ll reunite and meet in another life just like Katy Perry song: “The One That Go Away”,
but the difference is I’m just his friend.
I don’t want
to hurt Morty, so I will keep this for myself.
Cheating is
not very ladylike.
Sometimes
fate is cruel.
But it’s crueler if we say that
we love someone but the
truth is we are not.
- Flashback
End -
Tomorrow
she’ll come over to our house.
That’d
lovely. Have she found someone that she truly loved?
Well, I do.
My love for
Morty grew stronger after we face trials of life together.
I guess it’s
all the right moves for both of us.
- Back to List
of Stories –
Ari’s
Ramblin’
It’s story
collaboration with Big Sis. So, yeah we’re brainstorming things one day @Origin
and it turned like this after we survived with #typoalot. I’ve had my fun
writing this; hope that you’ll enjoy it too.
Credits
Lots
Darkmoore
Keep (indira_1221)
Images
Brian Froud
Elsa from
Frozen
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